“Sooooo….you….wanna talk about it?”Īnd just like that, the floodgates open and all Sebastian’s feelings come pouring out. Sebastian and Emily sit down in the living room on different couches, not making eye contact. Tanner keeps concernedly glancing over at him, but Sebastian’s too preoccupied with his own worries to address his boyfriend’s worries.Įmily's wife Shivani welcomes them into their home with open arms, and after introductions and friendly chitchat, Shivani invites Tanner to help her finish cooking, and gives Emily and Sebastian space to talk in the living room.
He's barely using the word gay for himself, and, aside from his boyfriend, he’s never talked to another openly gay person and what if he messes this up and he's not enough and he's dealing with this all wrong and and and Tanner tries to reassure him that there's nothing to be nervous about, but this is all so new for him. Sebastian is so nervous he nearly pukes on the car ride over. Jenna smiles, pulls out her phone, and texts her sister.Ī week later, Tanner and Sebastian are in the car on their way to Aunt Emily’s for dinner with her and her wife. He blurts out all at once that “sheseemssocooldoyouthinkwecouldhangoutsometime?” It is….not as smooth as he would have hoped
It takes Sebastian two weeks of hoping like hell that someone else is gonna mention Aunt Emily again before someone actually does. put those pieces together until just now. He had known that Tanner had a gay aunt, from that time he mentioned his aunt and her wife when he was visiting for dinner at his own family’s home, and he knew that Tanner’s mom was exmormon (and thus her gay sister might be too), but he didn’t…. He gets some concerned looks, but waives it off, and the conversation turns to something else. Tanner’s mom Jenna starts talking about Emily’s struggle with suicidality after she was outed and left the church, and Sebastian nearly chokes on his bite of broccoli. The conversation turns to the latest statistics on the youth suicide rate in the state. He’s having dinner with Tanner’s family one night when it happens. He has a billion questions all at once and wants to ask all of them but has no clue where to even start. When he finds out that Tanner has a gay aunt who was raised mormon, he is absolutely floored. He supposes probably wouldn't know, given that he's only ever told a handful of people, so other people probably don't talk super openly about it either. Or at least, he doesn't think he's ever met someone who shared his experience. He's distantly aware that there's a ‘gay community’ (whatever that means) and also that there's gotta be enough other people experiencing these things that the church has Policy and Guidance around it, but he's never met anyone who shared his experience. Sebastian Brother is Not Aware that there are other gay mormons.
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